iron factory

its offical i hate the post partum period, literaly. i have not stopped bleeding sice giving birth on april twenty first. i hate this. so far its been the grossest thing that i have had to go thru birth wise. while i think j was well worth it i feel like i have hit the end of my rope. on lighter note when i weighed jason this week it said he was twelve pounds if your not counting like i am i will point it  out thats a four pound gain in four weeks. the guid line for weight gain is a pound a month. i must have some great milk because my little man is thriving. so far the exclusivly pumping is going great and im blessed to have a supportive family when you choose to pump after not being able to breast feed you really are making a full on commitment. its cleaning parts cleaning bottles spending half an hour pumping every three hours waking up even when your baby doesnt. its getting wet spots on every shirt you wear because of the flanges having milk on them. its hard and every day i have to continue to want the best for my son, because let me tell you its way easer to mix up a bottle of formula.