Lazy Sundays

Im in love with the weekends why because its the time that justin and i spend together as parents and i really enjoy it. i know i always complain on how during the week i feel like a single parent but during the weekend i feel like we are a family. going places together is amazing. this last Friday we took our first trip away from J well it was my first trip away from him i hadn't been more than a coupla feet away from him since he was born so it was pretty traumatic for me. before we could even leave for anywhere he went with his grandparents to be watched till about almost one in the morning so his grandpa came to pick him up and that ended up in a big crying fit with me. i was so worried i cried about it for days that he would need something and i wouldn't be able to give it to him. but as you can tell everything went fine we are all safe and sound at home. but let me tell you pumping on the go is a really odd situation. i mean i had to do it or by then end of dinner and a move plus the hour long drive back home i would have been fuller than a water balloon about to explode and that would have not been good. i wish they made rooms at places for you to go and breast feed or pump it would be more practical then hiding in a car with dark tinted windows. oh well i still had fun on my first night out. it was weird not having him i had spent the last 11 months i havent been anywhere without him, but im confident that if i needed to leave him somewhere as long as it was with people that i trust i could do it with more ease. but let me tell you i would not trade anything for my former life because smelling the top of his head while he is curled up on my chest is so worth it
XOXOX