Blah is all i can say

This has not been the greatest of weeks for justin, j, and i. J has been sick since Monday running a fever off and on, and so have i. I have a splitting headache that has gone on for most of the week that im poping pills like they are mints. Im pretty sure J and i are passing it back and forth between us and its getting a little old. Next Wednesday i go in to get my IUD put it. Its not that i dont want more children its just i dont want more children right now. I had a miserable pregnancy one that involved the doctor every week for the last three months and twice a week the last month. Strong medications and staying in bed all day. I guess i should have written more thru that part of it right?
Since J turned 8 weeks old yesterday i thought i would talk about some things he is doing now that he was not doing when he was born. He now lifts his head and looks around during tummy time and kicks his legs back and forth almost in a crawling motion. ( boy am i gonna have my hands full early on ) He coos in a wide range of sounds and gets more vocal the more you talk back to him. He can track an object that he likes to look at for about a minute but then i guess he forgets what he was doing and looks at something else. He smiles when you do something he likes, like opening your mouth and eyes wide, Giving kisses, and being butt naked. And during tummy time he has figured out how to roll from his belly to his back. My little man is getting to be so big and im dreading his next well baby visit due to his two month shots. i know their are some people who do not like shots but they where invented for a reason, to make it so they dont suffer from things they dont have to. I got the chicken pox when i was 16 i had not been vaccinated for it when i was a child and let me tell you i was miserable. i had a fever and i was broke out everywhere, that ment my eye lids, ears, mouth, nose. i could not swallow and i had to drool into a cup ( attractive right ) Some of the mothers that think that not vaccinating their kids is ok, haven't seen what polio can do to a child because of vaccines that they where given when they where born. Their is no link between vaccines and autism, my vaccinated child is protecting their no vaccinated child. But what happens when a child cannot get vaccinated and a child who did not get vaccinated gets a deceases and gives it back to the other child, bad stuff. Oh well im done with my ranting today time to go back and cuddle some more with my sick little man.

First baby well check

Why do they call it this kinda makes me feel like i am under some kind of nazi dictatior saying how my child should be, or more like the doctor is trying to make sure im not killing my child with uncovered electrical outlets and things of the like. Im secretly terrified of this doctors visit because im always afraid they are gonna tell me something is wrong with my child and no mother wants to hear that. J seems to be thriving and by thriving i mean putting on four pounds in a month crying his little head off whenever one of his needs are not instantly met and sleeping like a champ. well sleeping during the day time when i prefer to get things done.
in other news my new breast pump should be here today and if its not im gonna be just a little ticked. i went with free super saver shipping with my Amazon.com order and they keep telling me its gonna get here on the first but just checked its tracking number and it said it left Pueblo today and thats about an hour away from us so what do you think?

BIg boys get to use the whole tub

Today J got his first bath without the little duck liner that we have been using to keep him mostly out of the water. BIg mistake most of the time i was terrified he was gonna turn his head and drown without me knowing it as i ranted on about soap and little toes being best friends. Well it was mostlly a mistake on my part from being terrified about it but J seemed to love it. he was constantly kicking he feet and wiggling around emmiting a plethra a cute baby noises and smiling at me intill it was time to wash his hair. J hates to get his hair washed well that and his face so we save this for the end of bath time so he can finsh being upset wrapped in his duckie agenst mommy chest. hey it works for us and it stops the hollierin most of the time. at first J didnt seem to like the bath and hollered when he was put in but now it seems i have a well rounded baby when it comes to it.
Justin is gonna be at work till around nine tonight and this is a first for me. he left at seven so it means when he Finlay does get here tonight he is gonna wanna eat and sleep, well that's poop i say. i didnt really even get my morning nap. when Justin gets up at five thirty he showers has his cup of coffee and takes shadow out then if J cries he is on baby duty till he leaves, which some of the time grants me about three hours of blissful uninterrupted sleep.i live for mornings because of this. but today as i said before i didnt get my nap so i have been a bit crochity today. that and my pump seems intent on killing me today which i havent been all to happy with.
J turned Five weeks old today and i think its a huge milestone a month ago i could not imagine myself at this point and im so proud to say that all three of us are thriving my house is not an utter disaster and justin and i still have a strong relationship. We have our first well baby appt tomorrow and im excited to see the growth and progress we have made over the last five weeks 

i leave you with a picture i took of j yesterday during bath time pardon the horrible quality i need a new camera