so its been a while a lonnngg while

trying on a pettiskirt i was making

going to the post office

since i updated and im sorry about that things got out of control jason got sick and it was jsut a bad couple of months for us! But i would love to give some updates :) J is now 10 months old 20 pounds 28 inches long, he is allergic to wheat, oranges, strawberries, peas, sweet potatoes, tomatoes, turkey, and a few others that i cant call to mind right now. He takes two naps a day one a 11am and one at 4:30pm and he almost sleeps through the night i say almost because he tends to get up maybe once every other other day during the night. We are officially baby food free J will not take purees anymore at all and eats big people food 100% of the time. He crawls stands up on his own and walks!









In our family news Justin and I have decided to put my womb out for rent! Yes i am going to be a gestation surrogate for a loving family! We are in the binging of the process but we might already have our family picked out the even more interesting thing is they live in China! Im so excited to start this proccess and you better believe everything that i can post about i will post about! Have a wonderful day!

the wasp nest in my window

so their is a wasps nest in my window in the computer room and it at first was fascinating till today when it went to scary when i looked in and saw not the one lonely wasp that started the nest but five of those suckers in their! i don't know where they all came from but needless to say five is to many and we will be getting rid of the nest tonight. it was kinda cool to watch it grow it has been their since i was pregnant with J and i watched it grow from some weird looking crap into a full fledged nest, if you ever get the chance to watch it safely i might add do it pretty cool to see it come out from nothing.
In baby J news we are going to the doctor again at 3pm today because J has been having a cough that scares the crap outta me and is hardly eating his bottle. This is the same boy that loudly demands his feedings and always gulps down what i give him and then loudly asks for more. I think im coming close to the end of my pumping journo. i have been pumping for about maybe the last two weeks and j has not been eating a drop of it because he has been on formula. But im tired of pumping just to stash it in the freezer. I hve well over a 1000oz stored up but if i can have the will power to just bite the bullet and eliminate all the dairy out of my diet its not going to make a difference. I have on the other hand been having an obber healthy diet as of the late. i guess it just makes me feel better thru the day if i eat a good three meals and day and healthy ones at that. So i might look into donating it. The last time i went about looking for some place to donate at i almost did until i read the finer print saying that the company made a profit with the donated milk. who wouldn't want their materials provided for free? so i sent them a rather mad email saying how when the encouraged mothers to donate to them they are indeed threatening the health of other premature babies who could have used the free milk. J turned Three months old today 1/4 of the way thru his first year of life and while i miss the moments when he was just a useless blob of human flesh i am glad that he can now interact with me and we have fun playing all sorts of games.
My sanity is going to be tested in September as i will be flying with Justin my parents and J over to Utah to visit my mothers side of the family. I have NEVER flown on a plane ever and i have always considered them pressurized cigar tubes flying buy who knows how a mile above the earth without enough parachutes on board for everyone. but im gonna suck it up and do it because im sure not driving 10+ hours with five people in the car one of them an infant that just sounds like a recipe for melt downs and yelling arguments that yes you need to pull over so i can feed him, its not like when you grew up!. But im still looking forward to it i have 3 second cousins that i have never met two who are about a month older than j and they are both cuter than anything you have ever seen! One belongs to my cousin Krista who i didnt see much of on our trips to Utah when i was younger but her daughter Mabel has the most hair i have ever seen on a baby and is such a cute monkey. the other is Jaden who belongs to my cousin Amy who was the cousin i was always excited to go see whenever we went. Jaden is such the little handsome man and seems to have a great personality. The third is Ronan Im not sure if i spelled that right but this little guy belongs to my cousin Jayson and is7-8 months old already and he has such and expressive face his picture makes me laugh!
I know this post is all over the place so im gonna throw you another twister and end with a picture of cupcakes that i made. white cake with strawberry frosting and a sprinkling of dark chocolate in the center they where yummy! and im glad i decided to whip the egg whites sepertly then in a different bowl made the rest of the recipe then folded the egg white in. it made such a difference, they where light and fluffy and had such a nice texture in the mouth.

Double take

today was J's first long car ride anywhere and let me tell you he rode like a champ. He was a bit fussy when we where getting ready and i was a little worried about that but the moment we pulled out of the drive way my little man was crashed out like the cat is in the sun. We drove an hour up to pueblo to go trade some stuff on craigslist that someone wanted from us ( little boys grow out of their newborn clothes so fast :( ) Well anyhow, we went looking at some home decoration stuff, and just browsing around ( we are in the middle of looking for a new living room set and didnt really find anything that i really felt like belonged in my house so we left to go to taco bell ( not healthy but i have been craving it!! ) we where sitting down waiting on our food when someone walks into the store and her little girl was in the same carseat as j was, i thought that alone was pretty cool, but then she goes on to talk to someone at the cash register and she starts saying how she just turned tow months old today and then my jaw dropped. J's turned two months old today and they are in the same car seat! What are the chances of the happening one in twenty trillion i think. J has an almost twin out their and it makes me smile to think about it.
I think for the next baby im going to make it a suprize so that was justin can tell me after i have gone thru the long labor and pushed the sweet secret that my body has been keeping ( we are hoping for a girl next time around ) But thinking about j's almost twin i got to thinking about the next baby. I have caught baby fever. while i didnt enjoy being pregnant I like the end result. I like the sleepless nights because im more of a night owl anyways and J so far has turned out to be a relatively good baby hardly ever crys and is a joy to be around. He is just growing up to fast and is now wear 3month clothes. I did keep a few of his onsies and a couple of overalls to start his baby quilt from ( im going to make him a quilt of all his baby clothes to give to his son/daughter )
But to my sweet little boy you are two months old today and you are still the apple of my eye the only person i have ever feel in love with so fast was your daddy. I have waited patiently for you for months and now that you are here i am enjoying every hug kiss and cuddling session. Every time you break out into you gummy grin and you coo back at me when i talk to you, makes my heart beat faster knowing that i get to enjoy your sweet innocence, and unconditional love every day. In some way this blog is a record to show to you when you are older so you know what the beginning of your life was like, and to explain how much i love you. Happy two months J mommy loves you.

"Thats gross!"

Since Justin and i are still on the younger end of ages to be having kids, we still have friends who are single who lets just say live in disaster zones. For the sake of his identity we will call him j's uncles cod-cod. Today i spent the better half of my day cleaning a kitchen that you could have gotten the virul plage from.

courtesy of Google images

It was nasty and i almost wish that i was the owner of a bio hazerd suit. Yes when you where younger you did have that friend who just lived in a pig sty untill he strated dating someone who ment something to him and he cleaned his act up. Lets also say i dont know how the kitchen got so gross because this guy does not cook anything that is not frozen so i dont really understand how it got as bad as it did. The only reason why i did it was because if uncle cod-cod had caught a virul flesh eating disease from his kitchen and died then Justin would have been really upset to say the least.

Onto other news J has begun to be more active and alert smiling back when he finds something enjoyable ( also known as a social smile ) and cooing like their is no tomorrow practical talking with me when i talk to him. he has begun to notice things that are further away from him and focusing on them. He has learned that he is the most handsome baby in the world and loves to look at himself in the mirror. J has started to sleep thru the night finally. He has his last bottle of pumped milk at about nine or tenish, then pretty much promptly falls asleep till about five or six in the morning when he gets to hungry and cant sleep any more wakes up eats four ounces and promptly goes back to sleep till about ten wakes up wants another bottle then its tummy time, reading time talking time and then back to sleep till about twelve or one, then up again for food back asleep till about four then up till he goes to bed at night. Yes i know its not the most perfect schedule but it works for us and im so happy to finally be getting a full nights sleep ( which i think in turn makes me a better mom because im not to tired to do all the things that im doing to stimulate his growing mind. No pictures today as i seem to have misplaced my camera

Rashes, pee, and dirty bathrooms

So this was the start of a good blog but my internet crashed and all it saved was the title poop. Hows bout we just share some pictures and celebrate that J is 7 weeks old today. Its hard to believe how much time has passed and it seems like im ready for someone to let go of the fast forward button and let me enjoy the little moments.

Tummy time

Everyone with a new baby knows what tummy time is. you place your little baby on his or her tummy and laugh while you watch their bobble head sway and weave around as your baby gets frustrated with not being bale to do what they want. Then as the weeks pass the slowly get better at it. Their head is up he is moving it from side to side, then soon comes the push ups, and you cry. It is a pre curser for crawling, and you watch their little legs move like they are crawling but not really getting any traction yet. It seems as if every moment on my parenting journey so far is coming fast, but i know they are coming as they are supposed to. Days and weeks have gone by and i still long to be back in the moment when they placed J on my chest and started wiping him off, and he looked at me with all the wonder of what had just happened to him. My little man is growing up and soon we will be digging in the dirt playing with trucks and he is going to be shouting,

"MOMMY!" "MOMMY LOOK AT ME!" But for now i will stare at his sleeping face and drink it in because one day he wont sleep in till twelve in the afternoon.

He loves to look around

Trying to get his head up

Had to change him because of a big blow out ewww

Blessing duds

J's blessing outfit arrived today thankfully because its tomorrow! its a sweet little white boy suit with a hand embroidered little white vest to go over the top of it. The only downfall is its to long in the arms and legs! i tried it on him and it looked like he was swimming in it. So tonight we are making a quick trip over the Justins parents house to have her help me make is just a little bit smaller for my little man who was swimming in it.

my cousin made this onsie for J its so cute! At first i could not decided what the creature was but turns out its just a blob with an eye and two arms

First baby well check

Why do they call it this kinda makes me feel like i am under some kind of nazi dictatior saying how my child should be, or more like the doctor is trying to make sure im not killing my child with uncovered electrical outlets and things of the like. Im secretly terrified of this doctors visit because im always afraid they are gonna tell me something is wrong with my child and no mother wants to hear that. J seems to be thriving and by thriving i mean putting on four pounds in a month crying his little head off whenever one of his needs are not instantly met and sleeping like a champ. well sleeping during the day time when i prefer to get things done.
in other news my new breast pump should be here today and if its not im gonna be just a little ticked. i went with free super saver shipping with my Amazon.com order and they keep telling me its gonna get here on the first but just checked its tracking number and it said it left Pueblo today and thats about an hour away from us so what do you think?

BIg boys get to use the whole tub

Today J got his first bath without the little duck liner that we have been using to keep him mostly out of the water. BIg mistake most of the time i was terrified he was gonna turn his head and drown without me knowing it as i ranted on about soap and little toes being best friends. Well it was mostlly a mistake on my part from being terrified about it but J seemed to love it. he was constantly kicking he feet and wiggling around emmiting a plethra a cute baby noises and smiling at me intill it was time to wash his hair. J hates to get his hair washed well that and his face so we save this for the end of bath time so he can finsh being upset wrapped in his duckie agenst mommy chest. hey it works for us and it stops the hollierin most of the time. at first J didnt seem to like the bath and hollered when he was put in but now it seems i have a well rounded baby when it comes to it.
Justin is gonna be at work till around nine tonight and this is a first for me. he left at seven so it means when he Finlay does get here tonight he is gonna wanna eat and sleep, well that's poop i say. i didnt really even get my morning nap. when Justin gets up at five thirty he showers has his cup of coffee and takes shadow out then if J cries he is on baby duty till he leaves, which some of the time grants me about three hours of blissful uninterrupted sleep.i live for mornings because of this. but today as i said before i didnt get my nap so i have been a bit crochity today. that and my pump seems intent on killing me today which i havent been all to happy with.
J turned Five weeks old today and i think its a huge milestone a month ago i could not imagine myself at this point and im so proud to say that all three of us are thriving my house is not an utter disaster and justin and i still have a strong relationship. We have our first well baby appt tomorrow and im excited to see the growth and progress we have made over the last five weeks 

i leave you with a picture i took of j yesterday during bath time pardon the horrible quality i need a new camera

bed sweet bed

tonights blog is from my bed, however long i will be in it. j has been so fussy today probably hitting his three week growth spurt. justin is snoring and im gonna be here soon